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ARE SEE
I use to think that who you Ris what I C.
Then I looked again, with eyes wide shut.
I know you better now; no ifs, ands, not even a but.
Who youR isn’t just what I C, and what I Ccan’t begin to describe all that you Rto me.
C, in my eyes you R a combination of the best contradictions.
honesty and sarcasm
maturity with a child-like mannerism
intellect and humor (“GEEEETTT EMMMM” )
giant and teddy bear
gangsta rap and All4One….. “I swear”
YOU’RE NOWHERE NEAR NORMAL
your swag and personality takes a unique shift
I mean….kendrick lamar, drake, Big KRIT and Taylor swift!?!?!
The cooking dance, basketball, high top, POP, even country
and Last but not least the POETRY .
I admire your depth in capacity not to mention your capability
P.S.
Did I fail to mention my most favored contradiction?
While you are my RC, you aren’t the regular ARE’s and you’re like nothing I’ve SEEn :)
6 Nov, 2011 (i need your GLORY dance)
i visited the highline on a class trip and BOYYY i tell you, I WAS INSPIRED…im going to be an architect, one of significance too
sooooo im 20 now…hmmmmmm idk how to feel..a part of me thinks im running out of time while the other half is soo excited. im happy to be growing into a young woman, learning and discovering more about myself and being able to look back at my growth and how much i’ve moved on from. the youth retreat was amazing this weekend and i can honestly say i buried my “dead man” the things thats been hindering me from being able to stand and moving on. i am ready to move forward and into my purpose..time after time after time God has been confirming through soo many ppl that i will do great works/ great things..i believe him with all that i have within the depths of my soul…..im ready and i WILL do all he says to …#watchmeLIVELOVEGROW
my birthday is in a few days….im not to happy about leaving my teenage years behind. i feel old all of a sudden, i guess facing reality has always been something i tried to leave for last. i realize as i get older, how much i miss beeing a kid..no worries no problems nothing but life..and living it. well i cant waist any more time wishing i was younger, i just have to face this world and work toward the things i want out of this life i live. im ready? i guess, i hope………..im tired.
on another note, im going on a trip tomorrow ’camp of the woods’, here i cocme!!
im ready for some fun and laughter and another level closer to God. Thank you father for another year of experience, growth, knowledge, and wisdom earned! i will take it onward and try my hardest not to look back. i believe in the great things you have in store..i bless you, love you, trust you, praise you, worship you, give it ALL back to you. I THANK YOU for your love and kindness is better than LIFE!! keep me safe oh lord so that i can fulfill all those things i speak to you about. you are my best friend and all my hopes and dreams are confided in you. goodnight lord
lately i’ve been giving up and im so frustrated with myself….i know what i want to do i have all these plans and all this support but i keep believing the devils lies, telling me it will all be in vein, and to make it all worse she didn’t get t he job. its like it was all right there in her hands and within an hour it was GONE. Now i’m faced with the reality of not knowing exactly where these monies are gonna come from i have all these schools i want to apply to but no money to pay for application fees , i have all these plans but for some reason keep holding myself back. i BOND the spirit of doubt in jesus name. i know i can do this and i would HATE it if i didnt do all that i planned to NOW and ended up waiting i need all A’s in order to confidently apply for these schools and scholarships lord i know u gave me a mind that has the capacity to comprehend all the things i am faced with. physics and math will no longer be a fear of mind/mine. i am willing and able to over come lord take control and give me an even more determined spirit and an even tougher faith in you. i rebuke my doubts and embrace your will i trust you. i am tired of talking the talk and not walking it the way i talk it. im so tired of disappointment mostly disappointing myself. i know i can do better what the hell is holding me back i have no clue and words cant explain how frustrated i am with myself for getting weary and giving up so easily, for procrastinating and leaving things for tomorrow, i cant allow all this money and all this support i’ve been blessed with just go to waist i need your help lord give me an obedient spirit i dont want to wait until the last minute to realize i’ve completely screwed myself over. let the right ppl into my life give me the right things to say give me an undistracting, determined, cant stop, wont stop, spirit. i feel so mad at myself and i know the devil thinks he has won but NO HE HAS NOT. i will pass every SINGLE ONE of my classes with an A and i will go away and pursue my degrees and i will be a successful architect. I WILL BE ALL I EVER HOPED TO BE IN JESUS NAME.!!!!!! THE DEVIL WILL TRY TO PUT OUT THE LIGHT AND LEAVE YOU IN DARKNESS ABOUT WHO U ARE AND WHAT U SHOULD DO WHERE U SHOULD BE AND EVERYTHING THAT GOS HAS FOR YOU WILL BE UN SEEN BUT HE IS A LIAR AND I WILL NOT BELIEVE HIM BECAUSE ONLY COWARDS WORK IN THE DARK THE LORD IS MY SHEPARD I SHALL NOT WAnT AND I WILL NOT BE ANXIOUS FOR ANYTHING I WILL ABIDE (X INFINITY) AND I WILL NOT BE DISCOURAGED BECAUSE HE COME TO TRY TO KILL STEAL AND DESTROY BUT HE WILL NOT PROSPER FOR THE LORD IS WITH ME AND HE COMFORTS ME HE WILL NEVER LEAVE ME HE LOVES ME ETERNALLY AND I WILL NOT ALLOW HIM TO MAKE ME DOUBT THAT. I LOVE THE LORD WITH ALL MY HEART AND EVERY SICKENING SPIRIT OF THE DEVIL PLANTED IN THE MIND OF ME AND MY FAMILY IS BINDED AND REBUKED IN THE NAME OF JESUS. I WILL MOVE FORWARD AND DO ALL THAT HE SAID TO DO BY FAITH AND NOT BY SIGHT. TONIGHT IS THE NIGHT THAT THINGS WILL BEGIN TO CHANGE I WILL DO IT ALL OF IT EVERYTHING HE SAID TO DO I WILL STEP OT IN FAITH…IN JESUS NAME AMEN. IM GOING FOR IT WITH U BY MY SIDE U ARE MY FRIEND AND THERE WILL BE DOWN FALLS BUT FAITHFUL IS THE WOUND OF A FRIEND. WE WILL BE FRIENDS, LOVERS FOREVER AND ETERNALLY. AMEN AMEN AMEN.
